ayahuasca
It is 2012. I was already used to not ‘following something’, but to find my own way through all the treasures. It promised to be a special year.
I once saw a BBC documentary with a man having a drink in the jungle and that seemed to be pulled inside out. He throws up, and looks like a different person afterwards. I’m going to do that one day. A thought I still remember.
Several years later, someone mentions it, as typically something I would do. Every year I immersed myself in the higher, in an alternative way, the indigenous, the mystical, the therapeutical …… An energetic therapist who had meant a lot to us, by helping the children with sleeping problems, among other things, did not dare to do it herself, but had the idea that I ‘ran’, an emotion so deep, so it required something very potent. An old grief, where a therapist in the western sense of the word really does not ‘get around’ with a number of therapy sessions. It was her, ‘gut feeling’. And it suits you.
I search the net. The Sacred Journey.
Since then I made 9 journeys.
I decided to cook for myself. And later those around me.
A tough learning journey, with the lessons from the first few trips I made as a very vague form of guideline…. and the practical tips of a number of people….
The first journey
The birth, the caesarean section, the 11 day of the first contact with my mother and the chill of the first 10 days. The deep feeling of not being able to fall back on someone.
The music, the energy, the very clear seeing that is more feeling with images….? …. The beauty, the connections, the light….. the energy, the movement,…. the all that potential….. what a power
Hearing someone ask the question, ‘Is there more between heaven and earth’…… then I think….. WHAT…. the indescribable quantity of what is, in heaven, on earth, in the here and now…. It seems like such an odd question. Is there more. …
Since then I stopped brewing. The ‘authorities’ have become more aggressive towards any form of healing plant use for healing purposes and in search of the higher self and meaning in life.
People that wanted to make journeys were often searching for a thrilling experience and if possible in comfort without pain etc. A typical western phobia.